|
SubscriptionsSites I Read
|
|
|
|
| today's just one of those days. YOU know... THOSE kind of days... 0__o
i ate so much today i got DIZZY walking up the stairs. i mean, how
often does that happen? i swear, i have the appetitie of an obese
person. and one day, i will probably become one.
*a random aim conversation*
hA r HA r 9 1 3: hi
michellexher: hey
michellexher: 25105408721054623001540230..
michellexher: 3
michellexher: .210560.3
hA r HA r 9 1 3: huh
michellexher: .012021010254235600012.0.0.
hA r HA r 9 1 3: wtf
michellexher: oops. sorry
michellexher: i spilled freaken salsa on my keyboard
michellexher: trying to clean it right now
hA r HA r 9 1 3: hahahaha
...while i'm on a tangent... i was going through my text messages today... and i read these:
outbox: "i used to eat bear claws two at a time"
inbox: "i have cat like reflexes"
hahahah.
| | |
| it's INFURIATING
so the story goes...
i wanted to crash a course at Mesa. I dropped one of my classes this
quarter and seeing as i am low in units (yet again. what else is new?)
I had wanted to take Eng 105, which would not only give me an extra 4.5 units but also get rid of one of my
humanities ge (yay.) and i'm on
financial aid probation so units are like gold to me. BUTT..
and here's the butt. class started last tuesday. and speaking in uc
terms.. that's totally fine... to add a class at the end of week
2. but i guess at Mesa, even though you can technically add the
class online, you need the teacher to give you permission. SoooOO
My friend's taking that class and i ask her,
me: hey, is there a lot to catch up on?
friend: no. we just read 2 poems pretty much.
me: oh. that's it? no assignements or anything due?
friend: nope. we haven't really done anything in class
me: oh is the class big?
friend: no. it's small. there wasn't many people the 1st day of class so she didn't even take role.
me: great.
so feeling confident, i write her an email tuesday regarding the situation. and i waited...
and waited....
for two days. BUTT. here's anothoer butt. --->no answer.
BUTT i mean oh well u know. maybe she didn't get my email...
so the class is 8-9:20am tues/thurs (so yea. i technically only
missed 2 days since she didn't take role the 1st day) . so i get to
class at 7:45.. wait and wait for that damn teacher. and she walks in.
mmm... she kinda looks like a hippie... with gold teeth (from the
coffee)..
i walk up to her after she walks to her desk and i ask her politely
me: oh... i was wondering if you got my email? i had wanted to crash this class.
teacher: oh. yea. i did. but. i don't think so.
me: (confused) oh? ... oh. yea... b/c (and i explained the financial
aid probation issue to her... and that i already knew about the 2 poems)
teacher: yea. i think it's too late... i don't think you'll be able to catch up.
me: (even more confused) o really? oh. well b/c i really need this class.
teacher: um. then why don't you take classes at ucsd?
me: I am. i'm taking the max amount of units next quarter but i'm still short a few.
teacher: yea. i don't think so.
me: oh ok.
i mean, how frustrating is that????. i can't think of one legitimate
reason why it would be a problem for me to add the class. ONE there was
no make-up work for me to "catch up on." ... TWO it wasn't like the
class was too big, and THREE the reg-e said the class was still open...
i couldn't think of one good excuse.
but she obviously did. .... and HER excuse, "I DON'T THINK SO." (---'i don't think so??')
well my ass thinks so. what a prick. i hate her guts.
and what makes me MORE angry is why she didn't just email me to tell me that
she wasn't gonna let me in the class? noOo. she had to wait for me to
come to class at freaken 8 in the morning to reject me in person in
front of the class.
i'm SOO ANGRY 
so i needed a picture to make me think happy thoughts...
(this was at Hooter's during the summer. yea the summer i sold books
door to door. the boys decided to visit us ... and so we went to this
bar first, where the bar tender there didn't card, so we got drilled
there, then went to hooters, drank some more... then DANCED in teh
parking lot with music playing from Lynna's car.
ahahaha. good times indeed.) ok i feel much better
| | |
| it struck. the way i knew it would but had hoped it would be later on in the future....
you know that point where you start to become less secure about the
other person's feelings about you and the more you begin to care about
that person. that it makes you do ridiculous things for no reason and
confuse them about how you really feel. but you can't say it because
you 'd probably feel like a moron for what might come out of your
mouth.
freaken ay. i'm so confused about so much.
there was this conversation i had with a friend and she had mentioned
how she was ready to settle down-- as in she's done with just dating
around for fun but wants to be in a steady, serious relationship. altho
i am in a relationship right now, when i first heard that... i thought,
'why lady???' we're only 20. we'll have the rest of our lifetime (from
late 20's and on) to be in a steady, serious relationship --a.k.a.
marriage--but recently, i came across an article that kind of changed
my mind.
it was an interview with sarah jessica parker. i'm really starting to
like her, not as carrie in satc but just as a person. she seems like a
very well put together kind of gal and so articulate, too... ok fine.
she is in her 30s or 40's or whatever and has lived enough to know
enough. but anyway. she mentioned how motherhood has really changed her
as a person. her 3 year old son recently said to her, "I love Mama. I
love her blue eyes. She's so nice to me," which upon hearing she had
thought, "how did this happen?"
how freaken awesome is that--not only to be in a healthy marriage where
despite the ups and downs, you know deep down that the love you share
is real, consummated by a lifetime commitment to each other, but in that state, you
guys have a child who shows you a different dimension of what it's like
to love someone, not in a boyfriend or a husband kind of way but
something completely different. a ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming,
can't live without each other love. i can't even imagine what it would
feel like to have those 2 kinds of love in your life. that's not to say,
of course, that marriage or motherhood is always going to make you
happy or that it's void of problems just because the love is there...
or that relationships prior to marriage lacks love but it would be nice
to have that kind of foundation with someone and to build upon it. i
think with any relationships before marriage, it's hard to start that.
it's hard to expect your significant other to say something or do
something without having to question "how much longer?"
anyway. does that even make sense? i don't know. i think that's enough for today.
oh and edit. i love annie. and she's not ditchign me on my birthday to
get laid in encinata. she's not of age and won't be able to participate
in certain activities that weekend anyway, whcih sucks. but that goes
to all the 20 year old friends on my birthday.
well i guess that's my rant for now.
p.s.guess who's gonna be studying on a friday night?
| | |
| i'm one of those people who learn slow and so has decideed it was necessary to skip a
fun-filled weekend of my apartment mate's belly dance party,
winterfest, overnight trip to rosarito, and all the good stuff that
apparently happens only on the weekend before i have 2 midterms. which
also haplessly fall on valentine's day and the day after. so bye bye to
times of shaking those bumbums, drunken debauchery, sweaty boys at
rimac, a sweet valentine's day dinner, etc etc etc. ...
oh. and by the way, my best friend isn't coming down to celebrate my
21st birthday... my ONLY 21st birthday with me. because she'd rather
get laid in encinata with her akpsi buddies. i hate her guts. yea, she
wanted an update so. THERE YOU GO. i hate you. forever. (well,
actually. i really DO love you). .......just..... not right now. 
i got a 41/100 on my 1st ochem midterm. average was 68 or
something. i probably did better on that midterm last quarter
when i didn't study. poo
i got a $35 parking ticket so i have to appeal that pretty soon
before they raise it to 70. the last thing freaken money-whore
ucsd needs is more money. oh crap. i just remembered. my library
books are overdue. i guess i'll haul my heavy piano books
tomorrow. usually they're lenient with overdue charges for books.
so i'm not too worried. just worried about what kind of lame excuse i
can conjure up for my parking ticket so i can get out of a 35 fine. i'm
usually lucky with this stuff... but i've had 2 already so i'm crossing my fingers for this one.
i've been having allergic reactions on my skin. esp. my face. i have
red, itchy, dry, wrinkeld patches under my left eye, chin, some parts
of my body, etc. it looks gross. and i seriously need a haircut.
well yea. . it wasn't an incredibly fabulous week. so i decided a
well-deserved bath was in order. so i took one yesterday for literally
like 2 hours. i swear i shrunk like 2 inches after the bath. i was so
pruny and my hair was all over the place--- i looked like... something
that got caught in the drain.
anyway. i'm gonna take my benadryl soon. finally. off to lala land for me.
| | |
|
